Narcoleptic Insomnia

Sep 01

I’ve never been one to
send short text messages.

I can’t seem to understand
how someone can mean to
say “I saw the stars trying
to escape from underneath
your skin and I think I have
been waiting all my life to
find a body with entrance
wounds like mine so that I
wouldn’t have to hide them
anymore” and type out,
“nice seeing you 2day”.

I’ve never been one to
bind in my heart.

It reaches out toward
hands like lips to skin and
I cannot help but let its
rhythm walk for me on days
when I cannot lift my feet
on my own. I can’t seem to
understand how someone
could put want into a two
sentence text message.

I’ve never been one to
forget moments of closeness.

My want looks nothing
like “r u wet” and does not
end with “did u cum”, it is
full and breathless, it
quakes against thoughts
of the wrong people and
falls asleep underneath
stars with boys it wishes
it could crawl inside of.

I’ve never been one to
trust the good things.

My text messages will forever
read like shitty novels with
too much repetition and
a hell of a lot of smiley faces,
and there’s no reason they
shouldn’t. My palms will
reach for yours in the dark
and hope to find more than
skin; I will tell you when
my mind wanders into your
chest and falls asleep
hoping for a home there.

I’ve never been one to
send short text messages.

” — r u awake?, Emma Bleker (via stolenwine)

(via kintsukuroi-souls)

One of my biggest pet peeves:

Me: Could you please not smoke in the house/car/other enclosed space where you are going to be less than 7 feet from me?  I have bad asthma when it comes to cigarette smoke and I don’t have access to my puffers right now.

Smoker: No no, it’s fine, I have asthma too, so you should be good.

Just because you choose to ignore serious potential health risks doesn’t mean you get to force them on anyone else.

ethiopienne:

on today’s episode of me having feelings, a series of tweets about “anti-rape nail polish.”

ethiopienne:

on today’s episode of me having feelings, a series of tweets about “anti-rape nail polish.”

(via caterjunes)

Aug 26

I need to rant about something for a second.

I’ve worked in spas/salons for 6 years now and I’ve been watching Tabatha Takes over and I want to know where the living heck people thought this “standing desk” or giving their receptionists bar-style stools to sit on is a good idea.  I get it “adds to the aesthetic” and receptionists are supposed to be busy and shouldn’t have a ton of time to sit but I think as an owner/manager it is your responsibility to make sure your receptionists are comfortable when they do have to work your front desk.

The first spa I worked at had a low desk with a high counter and real office chairs.  I had always had very good posture throughout elementary and secondary school and that kept up when I worked at that spa.  I had a portable phone so I was also in charge of the boutique floor, laundry, all of the tanning facilities and clients so it certainly wasn’t a sitting job, but when I needed to cash clients out, book appointments, cash in an out at the end of the night I was able to sit in a real chair with my feet flat on the floor and I didn’t have any extra back pain and I still had good posture.

The next spa/salon I worked at we had these hard as rock bar stools with a 5 inch high bar for back support.  The desk was extremely high and we basically perched all day and had to hunch over to see the computers that were set down into the desk.  At this place we were chained to the phones, we were not allowed to do laundry, clean or anything else other than filing because that was left for the assistants so they didn’t get sent home on slow days.  The boss would literally call the front desk (he had cameras in his office and home) to ask where one of us was if he couldn’t see us at the desk… it was usually the washroom or telling an esthetician her client was here. A year and a half later my registered massage therapist told me I need to stop slouching because I had terrible knots in my lower back… I started going to her because I had back pain so bad it was waking me up at night.  The next spa I worked at was a spin-off business of the second spa so we had the same desk situation, except now the tiny desk had nowhere to put my knees so I had to hunch even further forward to use the keyboard.

The third spa I currently work at has the same hard as rock plastic bar stools that we perch on all day.  We are busy but it’s with desk work: booking, emails, making/receiving  orders, cashing out clients, answering phones, etc, so we’re sitting a large portion of the day.  The last year I’ve had the same back problems and developed sciatic nerve problems when I sit in regular chairs.  My college classes sucked because of this, I had to change position every two minutes and drives back to my hometown are super painful.  At one point they took away the stools as punishment because they found some mistakes in the booking system and thought it was because we were “too comfortable.”  I had only been there a few months when they did this and I was shocked…we’re not children and it felt super passive aggressive because we just showed up to work and the stools were gone… No one told us about the issues, no meeting until my manager scheduled one a week later and I asked for the chairs back because just in the week of standing we ALL had back pain because we had to hunch over these desks so see the low computers and to type on the even lower keyboards.  Taking calls was awful because we had to hold the phone with our shoulders, hunch over  and lean one elbow on the desk to be able to book appointments.  It actually distracted us MORE not having the stools there. I told my manager this, she agreed and the chairs were brought back.

If you’re worried about your reception staff being lazy, don’t hire/keep lazy people.  You don’t just give them super-uncomfortable seating or no seating at all when they need it to do their job well and in comfort.  You don’t take away the foam mats from your stylist chairs and say “well we don’t want you to get too comfortable.”  This trend in spas/salons needs to disappear.  Forever.

tl:dr: The trend of workplaces giving their front desk/reception staff uncomfortable bar stools or no seating at all needs to die a quick, painful death because it’s unhealthy and misguided.

Aug 22

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Members of the Palestinian security forces take part in a training session in the West Bank city of Jericho. (Reuters)

Members of the Palestinian security forces take part in a training session in the West Bank city of Jericho. (Reuters)

(Source: footybedsheets, via redrahloo)

dxtective:

be cAREFUL MAKING WISHES IN THE

*slams fist against wall*

DARK DARK!

CAN’T BE SURE WHEN THEY’VE HIT THEIR

*head butts the door*

MARK MARK!

AND BESIDES IN THE MEAN, MEAN TIME I’M JUST DREAMING OF TEARING YOU APART!!!

*picks up a person and throws them out a window*

(via bethalert)

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Thanks!  I get that a lot about being a brunette.  I’ve thought about going darker but right now I love my blonde too much and honestly with how fine/thin my actual hair is I don’t think it would look darker on me.  Maybe in the future though.
Scarily enough that is my actual eye colour.  Those aren’t contacts and I didn’t edit the photo other than cropping it…Just in certain lighting they look that bright.  My group of friends I’ve known since highschool tease me about my “laser death” eyes and the last time I tried to send a silly photo to a friend this is what I got sent back:
My friends are talented.  Assholes but talented.

Thanks!  I get that a lot about being a brunette.  I’ve thought about going darker but right now I love my blonde too much and honestly with how fine/thin my actual hair is I don’t think it would look darker on me.  Maybe in the future though.

Scarily enough that is my actual eye colour.  Those aren’t contacts and I didn’t edit the photo other than cropping it…Just in certain lighting they look that bright.  My group of friends I’ve known since highschool tease me about my “laser death” eyes and the last time I tried to send a silly photo to a friend this is what I got sent back:

My friends are talented.  Assholes but talented.

Tomb Raider - Lara Croft Reborn cosplayWig/Makeup test

So I know I haven’t posted any updates on my cosplay recently but I’ve been crazy busy with work with people going on vacation and working some super overtime.  I have been working away in my spare time and since it’s down to the last week before FanExpo I’ve been in cosplay crunch-time.
For the wig:
On a pretty good recommendation I purchased my wig I used for The Corsair and my fem-Connor from AC from a wig dealer on ebay, and while the wig served it’s purpose, I felt it needed an upgrade for Lara.  The fibres are starting to look really messy (even with taking good care of it), the bangs were just too short and annoying as heck and I can’t get my fingers through it to save my life.  This year I purchased a wig from Epic Cosplay after hearing lots of good things.  I chose the Nyx in Dark Brown for Lara.  I couldn’t recommend this company more because for the same amount of money as my last wig (about $50 CAD after tax and shipping) I got a wig with MUCH better fibres which is also tangle-resistant AND heat style-able.  The only issue is my order took a long time to get to me because a glitch in their system didn’t show my wig as being ordered. However once I contacted them they fixed it right away and I got it within a few days.  I recommended two of my friends in my cosplay group get their wigs from there and they got theirs within a few days as well.
The wig itself feels amazing: so silky it feels like I’m running my hands through my own freshly-washed hair:
First putting it on the bangs were WAY too long but I was ok with this because I planned on having my stylist trim/shape them and some face-framing pieces.  This is the wig before trimming:



And after:
I don’t have any pictures of me wearing it post-shaping but I’ll post a pic when I do my final makeup test.  My stylist did an amazing job following the picture I showed her and from listening to what I wanted and what wouldn’t bug me throughout a day of wearing it.Makeup:So this makeup test I decided to just focus on contouring and basic colours.  I focused on shading my cheekbones and the harder planes of my face to take away some of my natural roundness and give me some harder lines.  I also shaded my eyes a lot darker than I normally would and emphasised my lower lash line with some neutral browns to give that haunted/stressed look that won’t look terrible in the florescent lights at the con:
I bought the Cinema Secrets Injury Stack and have been playing around with it to do the face/upper body scratches, scrapes and bruises and will post a picture when I’ve done a full test.

Tomb Raider - Lara Croft Reborn cosplay
Wig/Makeup test

So I know I haven’t posted any updates on my cosplay recently but I’ve been crazy busy with work with people going on vacation and working some super overtime.  I have been working away in my spare time and since it’s down to the last week before FanExpo I’ve been in cosplay crunch-time.

For the wig:

On a pretty good recommendation I purchased my wig I used for The Corsair and my fem-Connor from AC from a wig dealer on ebay, and while the wig served it’s purpose, I felt it needed an upgrade for Lara.  The fibres are starting to look really messy (even with taking good care of it), the bangs were just too short and annoying as heck and I can’t get my fingers through it to save my life.  This year I purchased a wig from Epic Cosplay after hearing lots of good things.  I chose the Nyx in Dark Brown for Lara.  I couldn’t recommend this company more because for the same amount of money as my last wig (about $50 CAD after tax and shipping) I got a wig with MUCH better fibres which is also tangle-resistant AND heat style-able.  The only issue is my order took a long time to get to me because a glitch in their system didn’t show my wig as being ordered. However once I contacted them they fixed it right away and I got it within a few days.  I recommended two of my friends in my cosplay group get their wigs from there and they got theirs within a few days as well.

The wig itself feels amazing: so silky it feels like I’m running my hands through my own freshly-washed hair:

First putting it on the bangs were WAY too long but I was ok with this because I planned on having my stylist trim/shape them and some face-framing pieces.  This is the wig before trimming:

And after:

I don’t have any pictures of me wearing it post-shaping but I’ll post a pic when I do my final makeup test.  My stylist did an amazing job following the picture I showed her and from listening to what I wanted and what wouldn’t bug me throughout a day of wearing it.

Makeup:

So this makeup test I decided to just focus on contouring and basic colours.  I focused on shading my cheekbones and the harder planes of my face to take away some of my natural roundness and give me some harder lines.  I also shaded my eyes a lot darker than I normally would and emphasised my lower lash line with some neutral browns to give that haunted/stressed look that won’t look terrible in the florescent lights at the con:

I bought the Cinema Secrets Injury Stack and have been playing around with it to do the face/upper body scratches, scrapes and bruises and will post a picture when I’ve done a full test.

Aug 17

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rainbow-runners:

grizzlybara:

I accidentally bumped into a Red at otakon and promptly apologized. 
I got a “sorry doesn’t do me shit.” in response.
Perfect.

YES

rainbow-runners:

grizzlybara:

I accidentally bumped into a Red at otakon and promptly apologized. 

I got a “sorry doesn’t do me shit.” in response.

Perfect.

YES

(via unfriendlytaiwanesehottie)